I hope that everyone is having a content and blissful day.   

My former relationship person crosses my mind sometimes and it is true for this morning:   

He opted not to cherish me and not to treat me well,    However, I tried to fix him by focusing on his potential and love the meanness and coldness of his heart.   Then, I gave up on him ever being devoted, loving, and trust worthy of my heart.   

Yet, I feel like I really loved him and always will from afar.

Sometimes, like right now,  I think about getting in contact with him just to say hi and say  I miss him.   I miss the way it was the first few weeks and after I gave up him and he kept reaching out to me begging for me to take him back.

Innocent and wholesome words… I miss you and hi…. I think about hearing his voice again.   I loved him.

The motto , “When people show you who they are the first time believe them,” reminds me I have hurt by him enough already and it would be dangerous for my heart to even seek out a conversation with him.   He treated me so well in the beginning and after I ended it though.  The part in the middle was pure escalating emotional abuse and cruelty.  It means he knew how to be a loving and good to me all along but opted to be abusive.   He made a choice to be emotionally abusive and cruel.   

Thanks for listening! It feels like support! 

I don’t feel tempted to look up his contact information now from just typing this out.