staring at the night sky

i always wonder ,

why is it always me?

why do i suffer so much?

what did i do to deserve this treatment?

staring at the hot bright sun ,

i always wonder

am i anyone’s sunshine?

do i make anyone happy?

do you love me?

staring at the warm evening sunset

i always wonder

am i worth living?

do i deserve any of this?

am i even alive ? or all of this an illusion?

staring at my bedroom ceiling

i always wonder

why do i overthink?

why did he leave?

why?

after closing my eyes

i get visuals ,

of him.

hugging me and promising me

“i will be there for you”

were you there with me ?

were you?

no

been a month since we broke up

been a year since you promised me to stay!

today , today is the day i will never forget. </3

26th of november , i will never forget.

thanks for reading , love you all. <3

love , R