Today was my first day back from work in two months. I have been placed in a psych ward two times this past July. The intrusive thoughts are still there but they get better through distractions and keeping busy. Rumination is my worst enemy. I feel the worst when I am bored. If I do Ruminate and don’t distract myself, I’m dead, period. Noone can save me.

What does help me get moving in the right direction? Keeping busy helps, reading helps, mindfulness helps, breathing helps. Some days suck, some days are great. Each day is a brand new day.

I struggle each and every day but I always find a way to get out of bed and keep fighting.