Depression has taken over my life i feel so useless. My hubby is great but i can't give him the one thing that would truly make him happy. KIDS you see i had a hysterectomy when i was26 and even though it was it was a life saver i not have taken my and my hubby chance away of bring happy. Yeah there is adopting but either my mental health that's a no no greeting out to. I had a total hysterectomy so no eggs either.I can see it in my hubby eyes ever time he looks at a child. The longing wanting the love he could give someone who had kids. Ive even thought about just telling him to go. Go and find someone u can have a family with but he says he loves me he don't need kids he has me. Yeah i believe him but i want him to have a full life. He can't get that with me. Im house bound due to other ill health to so my quality of life is zero. So Im holding him back in just been able to go out with our mates for normal things a loving couple wwould do for f**k sake i can't even make love to him. Whsts life do i give him? When i was a kid i would dream a white wedding living in a house with loads of kids ours and foster kids sound the place and just growing old together. With a sex life ad full as the the rest of our life.Oh boy how wrong did i f**k up that dream got my white wedding but there it stops. Im 35but my body has got to be in its 90 no joking. I feel like ny life has stopped. He should go and be happy…….