Okay really. Yesterday & Today sucked ass.
Yesterday I lost my bestfriend and she ended up fighting with me for the matter of 5 hours and then again today for a while, Now, I'm told to fuck off and not to talk to her, That's nice.
Tuesday my boyfriend got into a fight, I was hit by the opponiant and now my boyfriend wants to 'beat his ass' on Friday or Monday when they are back and I have to think of how to make sure he doesn't, I can't think of a single thing.
Today, My 'friend' Trey, Actually no. He's not my friend. I fucking hate him probably more than any other being in the entire world, But, I act toward him like he is a friend because I'm not the type of person to be fully a bitch to them and to be 'mean' to them saying I hate them.
Here's what he did.
He's dating my bestfriend and that makes it worse. After a little bit they had sex and I didn't know what to do. He's a huge player. He broke up with her and I was here to hold her when she was crying and couldn't breath, I feel like she is blinded by his love but doesn't take the time to notice he's really a player, or to even look at his relationship status now today.. That I'm very pissed about to find out that he's with, another girl. Fuck him.
He makes her miserable when he does shit like this and I hate it more than anything.
Other than that, My boyfrined has told me he dislikes when I am happy and when I smile, As well as when I talk to other males except for my close guy frined Brandon, Who we both seem to be close to.
Reason why he doesn't like me being happy, which really doesn't happen much anyways is because it makes him wish that he was able to be happy himself. As well as for the smile, He wishes that he could smile for real without it being fake, but he doesn't believe me when I say that I really only get a real smile when I see him and when he talks to me and such, I'm very much 'in love' with this boy and feel like I can't do anything right from the things that he once in a while points out to me.
So I do ask this to anyone that actually reads this and takes the time to pay attention to me, which most likely is 0-2.
If you read this, You should win a prive or something, I don't have anything to give except an I love you.
So, You are loved, I love you.
Your boyfriend should be happy for you that you have the ability to sometimes be happy and smile. It is unfair of him to say he doesn't like that, even if he is jealous that he can't feel happy himself. As for talking to other guys, that's just a jealousy thing, but make sure it doesn't go too far – you are an independant individual and have every right to have male friends as well as female friends, and vice versa for him too.
When it comes to your best friend, maybe just give her some time, I'm sure you'll eventually make up and be friends again; all friends go through silly arguments and they generally always sort themselves out over time.
You're both still young and shouldn't worry too much about boys. There's so much more time for that – boys will go from one girl to another at that age without a care in the world; try not to take it to heart, it's just the workings of young boys. At your age, nobody is ready to commit to one single person for very long, so try your best not to let 'love life' get in the way of enjoying your own life, because as many people here know, life all too quickly becomes very serious. Enjoy it while you can, live life as full as you can and don't let the b*****ds grind you down x