Guilt seems to be my constant companion. LoL any chance a Guilt Tribe is going to premier here soon?

I feel guilt that my depression robs me of the energy, motivation and inspiration that my children require of me to thrive. They are young enough that when I am solely surviving….it causes them to solely survive also. Its so very not fair to them and not what I want for them.

Guilt over my marriage. Depression did not cause our problems but it is getting in the way of us fixing the problems.

Guilt at allowing a known abuser to get close to me once again. Putting myself and my family in danger. Why did I do that?

I feel guilt over our financial troubles. We are trying to pay down debt yet I have not worked in 5 months and now I am draining our funds with prescription needs and therapy needs and doc visits. I feel like it takes things right out of my kids hands and mouths (because sometimes it really does).

I feel guilt that I have life pretty good yet I am completely incapable of enjoying it because of this depression. I am missing out on so much and I hate that. With a passion.

Guilt that my Grandpa is dying and I have left him and Grandma all alone when we moved. Yes they have their chilren there but they dont really help them. There is nothing that I can do form this far away except call them.

I am sure there are more, but the biggest one is that I feel guilt for feeling so guilty. Why cant I just do the best I can and be ok with that? I just want to be able to be proud of myself again. And to smile for real once in a while. I hope that is not a dream that is unrealistic for me.