I’M SO PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW! MY BOYFRIEND IS SUCH A FUCKING JERK. HE WAS DROPPING ME HOME AND I ASKED HIM IF HE WANTED ME TO DRIVE MYSELF TO SCHOOL ON MONDAY SINCE WE DON’T HAVE SCHOOL ON TUESDAY + IF I HAD TO THAN I WOULD HAVE TO TRY TO FIND SOME MONEY TO PUT GAS IN IT.(I USUALLY STAY AT HIS HOUSE CUZ HE GIVES ME A RIDE TO SCHOOL ON TUESDAY) HE WAS LIKE OH I HAVE TO CHANGE MY TIRES AND SEND SOME STUFF AND I GOT MAD AND SAID WHY CAN’T U TELL ME STRAIGHT OUT YES TAKE YOUR CAR TO SCHOOL THAT DAY. SO FINE I CAME HOME AND THAN HE CALLS ME TO TELL ME THAT HIS DAD CALLED HIM & THAT HE IS GONNA SEND HIM MONEY OK W/E. THAN HE SAID THAT FOR THE SUMMER I SHOULD GET A JOB AND IT GOT ME MORE MAD CUZ I HAD TOLD HIM ON WEDNESDAY THAT MY MOM WAS GONNA TRY TO FIGURE OUT A WAY TO GET ME SOME MONEY SO I CAN GO TO SUMMER SCHOOL & CATCH UP ON MY CLASSES + HE KNOWS THAT MY CAR ISN’T GOOD IT BREAKS DOWN ALL THE FUCKING TIME WHICH IS WHY I DON’T USE IT. SO HE I WAS JUST TELLING YOU SO U HAVE SOMETHING TO DO THIS SUMMER CUZ U KNOW THAT UR DEPRESSION GETS WORST WHEN U HAVE NOTHIGN TO DO OR EVEN SCHOOL. I WAS LIKE NO YOUR SAVING YOUR ASS CUZ U WANT TO GET A 2ND JOB THIS SUMMER AND DON’T WANT ME TO BE LIKE OH U DON’T WANT TO SEE ME AND SHIT CUZ U KNOW THAT ALL U GOING TO DO IS FUCKING SLEEP AND TRY TO SAY THAT UR WORKING EXTRA FOR MORE MONEY TO SPEND ON ME WHICH IS BULL. SO I GOT MORE MAD CUZ I WAS LIKE LOOK I TRIED TALKIGN TO U ABOIUT WHAT WOULD HAPPEN IF U GET A JOB THIS SUMMER AND HE SAID OH NO U WANT ME TO GIVE U A DETAIL ABOUT EVERYTHING AND I CAN’T TELL THE FUTURE CUZ I DON’T EVEN KNOW IF I’M GONNA HAVE THE 2ND JOB. SO I WAS MORE PISSED AND SAID I WANTED US TO TALK ABOUT U WORKIGN THIS SUMMER SO I CAN KNOW WHAT U WOULD WANT EM TO DO FOR YOU….DO U WANT ME CALLING U OR ASKING TO HANG OUT OR STAYING AT UR HOUSE SHIT LIKE THAT. SOMEHOW THE CONVERSATION ENDED UP ABOUT HIS FAMILY ….THE THING IS IF I TELL HIM SOMETHING OR GIVE HIM ADVICE ABOUT A GOOD JOB HE SHOULD TRY TO GET HE GETS ALL OH NO I CAN’T THIS AND THAT. BUT AS SOON AS HIS CUZIN SAYS THAT SAME SHIT HE IS LIKE OH UR RIGHT HOW COME NO ONE ELSE TOLD ME THAT. SO I TOLD HIM U KNOW WHAT I’M TRIED OF TRYING TO HELP U AND ALL U DO IS IGNORE ME. PLUS MY MOM HAD TALKED TO HIS MOM AND HIS MOM HAD SAID A COMMENT LIKE OH I WISH HE WOULD GIVE ME EXTRA MONEY AND MY MOM TOOK IT AS HER SAYING THAT HE WASTES ALL HIS EXTRA MONEY ON ME SO SHE TOLD HER OH THEY DON’T GO OUT CUZ MY DAUGHTER HAS NO JOB & SHE DOESN’T LIEK HIM PAYING FOR THIGNS WHICH IS TRUE. ALSO YESTERDAY HIS LIL SISTER TOLD ME OH MY BROTHER ONLY WORKS FOR HIMSELF AND FOR U AND I GOT MAD CUZ SHE MADE IT SEEM LIKE HE PAYS FOR MY BILLS. HE DIDN’T SAY SHIT TO HER HE NEVER DEFENDS ME FROM HIS FAMILY. HEY I UNDERSTAND TO HIM ITS FAMILY 1ST BUT IF THEY ARE TALKING SHIT ABOUT ME AND HE LOVES EM SO MUCH AS HE SAYS HE DOES THAN HE SHOULD AT LEAST DEFEND ME.BUT NO NOT HIM HE ONLY LISTENS TO THEM AND TAKES ALL THIER FUCKING BULLSHIT…I FEEL LIKE ONE DAY THEY WILL CALL ME A SLUT AND HE WILL JUST AGREE WITH IT INSTEAD OF SAYING HEY O SHE ISN’T AND RESPECT HER SHE IS MY GIRLFRIEND. ANYWAYS EVERYTIME I WANT TO TALK ABOUT SOMETHING IMPORTANT TO ME HE IGNORES ME OR CHANGES THE FUCKING SUBJECT. I CAN’T EVEN TALK TO HIM ABOUT MY DEPRESSION CUZ HE MAKES A STUPID JOKE THAT MAKES ME FEEL WORST AND I JUST GET PISSED AT HIM. I KNOW I NEED TO GET A JOB BUT I’M NOT GOING TO IF MY CAR DOESN’T WORK PROPERLY. ALSO MY DEPRESSION GETS TO ME LOTS OF TIMES…WHEN I USE TO WORK I WOULD FEEL THIS OVERWHELMING FEELING OF SADNESS AND WOULD WANT TO JUST CRY I EVEN DID A COUPLE OF TIMES. BUT HE DOESN’T EVEN TRY TO UNDERSTAND THAT. HOENSTLY I TRY TO HELP HIM BY DOING SOME THINGS OR LOOKING FOR JOBS THAT PPL TELL ME ABOUT SO HE CAN GET PAID MORE…BUT HE DOESN’T TAKE THAT IN TO CONSIDERATION . HE MAKES IT SEEM LIEK I’M SUCH A BITCH! I DON’T KNOW WHATS GONNA HAPPEN THIS SUMMER AND AT THIS MOMENT I DON’T WANT TO BE WITH HIM CUZ HE DOENS’T TRY TO UNDERSTAND ME OR HOW I FEEL SOMETIMES ITS ALL ABOUT HIM ALL THE TIME. I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO OR WHATS GONNA HAPPEN.