I got woke up by mum this morning, telling me that my father was here.

Oh great. So first thing I have to deal with today, is him. I quickly got dressed, and went out to the lounge. He was there with my step mother. She's sweet. I like her. Same can't be said about him.

They both say "happy birthday" and give me an awkward hug. He hands me a gift bag. On the top of the bag there was two Stephen King books.. THey are his, and I had asked if i could borrow one time. That was the only thing good that came out of that bag. There were two other things.. a "idog".. bascially some wierd looking little dog that plays music and wiggles its ears and tail to the music, and has flashing lights.. its pink and purple. My first thought was "This isn't even something I would get my 14 year old sister!, let alone someone 24".. It's something I would give a 8-10year old. I can't belive it. Of course I said I loved it and thanked him. Then there was gift two.. a thermal mug, with a coffee plunger.. with the price tag still on ($2).. I don't drink coffee.. I don't see when i'm ever going to use this. I don't want to sound greedy or anything.. I just thought, he would know me a LITTLE better than to get me something that is worth more than 2 dollars, and something a little age appropriate. I wasn't even going to open the dog. I thought i'd probably just sell it, unfortunatly my sister was very curious about the thing, so we opened it. Made sure it works and all that. Its now sitting on my shelf.. and will probably never be used again. That usually happens with his gifts.

I then opened my gifts from my mother, An Ipod dock/alarm clock/charger for my iphone. I really like it. Its black and sleek. I'm really happy with that, along with a DVD of Avatar and two charms for my pandora style braclet. One was a hippo and one a cat. I love hippos/elephants/ rhinos all that sort of thing, so that was really nice, and the cat is great too, cause I love my cats. At leas she knows me a little better.

The whole day I have been feeling down. I've been feeling incredibly sad. I'm trying to keep a smile on my face for those around me, but honestly, I feel like crying.  I probably sound like a ungrateful person right now.

but then again, its my party and i'll cry if i want too.