This is my first time writing about my current state of mind, so please keep that in mind as you read on. I am new to the world of anxiety and panic attacks, or at least I thought so. I suppose I have always been a nervous person and recent events have put me over the edge.
After five years of trying to get pregnant, I became pregnant and subsequently had a miscarriage on October 6, 2009. I was 10 1/2 weeks. At first I was very sad, then came anger, and finally massive amounts of anxiety. I was in and out of the ER thinking that I was going to die. All the ER docs could come up with was low potassium and anxiety. On my 4th and final visit to the ER I went into Super Ventricular Tachycardia or SVT. My heart rate went from 160 to 280 in a second flat. I was admitted to the hospital for over a week and finally sent home with Ativan and Metropol. So now I am wondering did the anxiety cause the SVT or was it the other way around? Either way I feel miserable and constantly on edge. After numerous doctor's visits & medications I am still right back where I started.
So what to do now? I have started meditating, seeing a therapist, and reading everything I can about anxiety and how to help myself. I had been doing quite well for a month and 1/2 in managing my symptoms without the Ativan, but I had a pretty bad anxiety attack today and had to take it. I feel like a failure. I thought I had a handle on this. Like I said I am new to this whole experience and I am not quite sure what to expect. I open to suggestions….