Am I enough?
You say yes. You mean no.
You come to me with your problems.
It’s nice to know that you trust me to help you.
But it’s better to not be trusted,
Then to be trusted to do something you know you can’t.
I’m already enough of a disappointment,
Failing to help you with your problems
Isn’t gonna help either of us.
“It’s not your fault”
“It would’ve happened anyways”
“There was nothing you could’ve done to stop it”
But they don’t know what really happened.
The memories refuse to leave
Insist on reminding me
Of what happened that night.
Everyone tries to help
I appreciate it, don’t get me wrong.
And it does help
But it’s only gonna be so long
Till I get it over with
And am gone.
I feel like I am a lost cause
That no one can help.
Sometimes I think I’m getting better
Only to fall even farther.
I don’t know how long I can do this…
They say “just take it one day at a time”
And I would
If I saw the reason
To keep going on like this.
They say it’ll get better
But what if it doesn’t?