You know when people tell you to never google your symptoms? Well I am soooo bad for always doing it! Whenever something is wrong, I get a funny headache or pain I’ve not had before, I go straight to google. Even though I know it will freak me out by saying there is something life threatening wrong with me even though it’s probably nothing!
The amount of times I have freaked myself out, made myself worry, you would think I would have learnt my lesson, but for some reason I can’t stop myself. I have always worried about something being wrong with me. I am terrified of getting ill and I am a real germaphobe, especially during the current circumstances.
Is it normal to be scared of death? It terrifies me. I know it happens to everyone eventually, but I am so scared of it. I am also scared of terminal illnesses, I have been since I was old enough to know what this means. I have seen so many people suffer and I don’t know if this is why I am so afraid. I don’t want my family to suffer, I don’t want to suffer.
Does anyone else feel like this? I hope it isn’t just me.