I married my husband before I had gotten over my former person.
We moved to a different state and do not have a job here. It has given me time to ponder on that fact that I never found closure.
It was a unhealthy relationship and I saw red flags 🚩 . I wish that I would of stayed single longer and processed the ending of the relationship before getting married.
I did love “ him”but he didn’t act in a way that showed the he loved me. I moved on. Now, I cry and question if I would of stuck with “him” would marrying him make him start treating me better. Maybe l loved him in both actions and words enough to fix the way he tended to treat me. I moved on. He reached out to me. It was too late. Too much damage had been done. I didn’t have any trust that he could be loving and good to me.
I don’t know. I am tired and have been crying about missing a man who emotionally abused me. I am not unhappily married but I hate where we moved to and living closer to my husbands relatives. They are horrible people. The people in this horrible town are horrible as well.
I could of had decent people related to me by marriage and maybe my love could of fixed the emotional abuse. I did and still love him I don’t know why but I do. I found some work related videos of him online and have been watching them just to see him and hear his voice.
Thanks for listening.