I started to look at the people around me. How they speak to me, how they look at me, how often people offer to help me, how often people invite me to do things, How often people tell me secrets, how often they ask questions to really know me.

I’ll admit I knew I was different ever since I was 14 years old. I saw the other kids making mistakes like failing classes, gossiping, bullying, dating and ditching. All the normal things middle schoolers do. But when I grew older the girls my age started to become more selective and I was use to be singled out. I was use to all of it, being discarded, chosen last, forgotten, and isolated.

The purpose of me writing this is because I just wan to say what I really want. I know I feel like Im always writing about love or someone to be with.. I don’t mean to make it my center of my thoughts but maybe its because I’m lonely… I only want…

Someone to be so in love with me that they offer me there jacket, someone to love me so much they hate the thought of me paying for our food, someone who loves me so much that they would never let me talk negative about myself, someone to love me so much that they love the sounds of my voice, Someone to love me so much they make me breakfast in bed, someone to love me so much that they want to take pictures with me to remember the moments, someone to love me so much that they know what kind of hair products I use, someone to love me so much that they know when im overwhelmed, someone who thinks of me in the middle of the day and sends me a message saying how in love they are, someone who loves me so much that they want to spend time with my family, someone who loves me so much they would kill for me, someone who loves me so much they don’t let me walk in the rain, someone who loves me so much they call to talk to me when they are dead tired, someone who loves me so much they travel miles to see me, someone who loves me so much they remember my favorite color, someone who loves me so much they would go do things that I enjoyed, someone who loves me so much that in the middle of the night they stare at me asleep so in love, someone who loves me so much they laugh at all my joke, someone who loves me so much they would never raise their voice at me, someone who loves me so much they handle me with gentleness, someone who love me so much they know my smell by heart, someone who loves me so much that the hug me every time i come home from work, someone who loves me so much they kiss my hands, feet, back, shoulder, cheek, and forehead, someone who looks at me dead in my eyes and tells me they love me, someone who sings to me, someone who will let me play my music on the radio, someone who will dance with me, someone to plan surprises for me, someone who uses kind words with me, someone who will make me laugh, someone who makes me feel like i could never be betrayed, someone who listens to me.. someone who just loves …