It feels like no one cares. I have been asking for help for the past 5 years and nothing is happening. I’ve tried professional help like therapy and medication in the past but my therapy and psychiatrist appointments were cancelled because my parents couldn’t take me. I’m failing school and I need help. I’ve been reaching out to people almost every single day and nothing is changing. I don’t have friends or anybody to talk to + being home schooled. Everyday feels unbearable and everyone tells me things will get better, but it’s hard to believe that when I’ve been stuck like this for the past 5 -6 years. It feels like most of my life was robbed by mental illness. Everyone else my age is learning how to drive, going out, having fun, getting their first job, getting better grades than me. I feel like I’m left behind. I want to run away.
Sorry if this doesn’t really make sense. 🩷
It makes sense. I know the feeling of been left behind while everyone else is moving forward. Please don’t run away and don’t take any drastic step. You are truly loved
Been doing the same for just over a decade, I was told at your age it would get better and all that, that was in 2015. I’ve been saying the same things to medical professionals as well as random people since 2009, nothing has changed. If it changes it seems to get worse, I grew up, my childish issues just turned into adult ones and still no changes. Just sadness piled onto responsibilities and expectations I dont even want. Id rather b dead but when I tried, the sadness that comes with failing even once is a heartbreak unlike anything I’ve felt. I remember the doctors faces who think they saved my life, I hate them, I hate them, the people they work for, the ones who pay them, the ones who make the rules. I hate everyone who is happy to be alive because its their fault the rules exist. Its their fault killing myself is wrong, my body, my choice! Death is inevitable, happiness is not. You will always be somewhat alone in life, somewhat unhappy, unfulfilled and dissatisfied. Life is just to fill this gap of time, there is no reason, no moral to the story, no purpose. Life’s a bitch and then u die. If people wanted it to mean more they’d fight for change, humans dont even want better for themselves, its sad really, I pity them because they’ve accepted low quality for the norm. And they force it on others everyday.