Well, what do we have here?  A blog attempt by yours truly? :O  I rarely write these things as I'm not very good with putting my thoughts into words.  I'm already stuck on what to type. o_o

 Anyways, I dunno how long this will be, I might just decide to end it right…. now!

 Just kidding.  So what's been happening lately?  I've just finished another few weeks of work and am now back on the unemployed list.  Just between you and me, I'm kinda happy.  At the moment I'm working temp jobs, so I'll have periods where I won't be working, and I do enjoy the free time.  Back in my little comfort zone. 🙂  The bad thing though is there's SO MUCH extra time in my life that I have to fill in somehow.  There's also the chance I may slip deeper into SA again as work is something that gets me out and about at least.

I don't think I've mentioned anywhere my serious lack of experience with girls either.  So, like, I'm 25 in August and I've never had a girlfriend or even a close relationship kinda thing with a girl.  I've always longed for that connection you know.. with that special person.  I just want someone to talk to.. to spill my thoughts and emotions out to.  Sure, you can do that with a guy friend, and I do regularly.  But it's just not the same…you know.  I feel hollow inside.  The older I get, the more frightening it all is.  Will I be alone forever?  I don't think I could bare it. 🙁  So yeah, that's been depressing me a lot lately.  To the point where I was actually moping around the university campus looking for someone to "talk to". >.>  Bleh, who am I kidding, I wouldn't have had the guts to approach them anyway. 😛 *puts down the crack pipe*.  I've also been listening to many sappy 80's ballads…. yep, that pretty much tells you about my situation at the moment. lol

With all of that negativity said, I'm going to go back to watching my Naruto episode and getting my butt kicked in CS. ^^

Take Care All and keep fighting. 🙂

Sempfy