I need to vent:
This is my prayer to God
Dear GOD! I need you at this time. I feel like crying. I feel so sad and I don't know why these feelings are hitting me so strong. I thought I was handling things pretty good. I'm strong but moments like these I feel weak and you know that I hate being weak. Many areas in my life are out of my control and I don't like being not incontrol. Im scared! Lord I give you my entire life my relationship with Christian, my search for a new job, and my future. You also know that I've been feeling insecure. I feel like I'm not good enough. I feel stupid and dumb. I know these things are not true, but I just want to be honest with the thoughts that run through my head. God you also know that my emotions drop when my anxiety hightens and gets bad. I hate anxiety and depression. I hate that I have to struggle with this illness. Its so hard. there are times I simple want to give up. Life is so hard. I wish I could go through life not having to struggle with this. Please change my mind set. Please help me to overcome my negative thoughts with positive and uplifting thoughts. I know I am a fighter and I overcomer. I know that you can do all things and you are all powerful.
Now to him who is able to do immearsurably more than all we ask and imagine, according to his power that is at work within us. Ephesians 3:20
In Jesus name that I pray AMEN!