Hi again every one or anyone I’m not really sure if anyone even reads my blogs. Some say these are just a cry for help or attention but I say it’s an outlet to let you guys know the painful truth.

So what is it today, you may ask? Well by the title you may be able to guess it.

Yep, I am seriously fucking cursed.

Just a few minutes ago actually my brother cussed me out then I didn’t bother saying anything and went in my room and closed my door. Upon closing my door my lamp, and computer the whole thing somehow fell right in front of me… The lamp is broken and the computer is cracked. You may just say that these are just bad luck sure.

But I have thousands and yes thousands of instances like this when shit doesn’t go my way and things are only getting worse for me. Everything I am a part of fails and I feel the pain while other ppl around me somehow get their way. Like I just don’t think I am meant to be alive b/c like every day my pain is just getting worst mentally and physically I swear I work my ass off but shit ain’t paying off. I am so tired of this like it’s ridiculous. Name something bad and it has happened to me, but death which in my eyes would probably be a good thing shit if things keep up this way I really won’t have to kill myself an airplane or bomb will probably just happen to land on my apartment and somehow only kill me or worst kill my family and I will have to watch the whole thing happen.

Like I really could write a whole book called “Jason’s Hell” or “The Endless Curse” By Jason or something like that. I haven’t even been on earth for 2 decades and I have been thru enough pain for our next generation like shit. This shit just runs in my bloodline honestly we suffer and suffer and suffer and work and work and suffer and suffer. Most of us die, and the few of us might make it and the end goal “happiness” ain’t even worth it cause we die as soon as we reach there like I don’t even know anymore I’m just tired. I hate this shit called Life so much. Why was there no preview I would have let someone else through? There is like 1 in a 100 billion chance of being born and I would not want to be here if 365 24/7 pain unhappiness voices annoyance pain etc etc etc etc etc.

I’m really hoping I just get killed cause I’m getting really tired of everything like death can’t be worst unless you prove me wrong lol.

And good luck with that with how shit my life is.

Jason