Hey, so I've been on here for a few weeks, and don't feel very "interactive". This is me. Laura. I do not have social anxiety. I don't know what my problem is to be honest. I'm not seeing a doctor. I should be. I get anxious about other stuff. More so, I get paranoid. I feel like there is always this impending doom. it's bad for me to watch the news. I'm not fearful of things that happen to other people, I'm fearful of things that may happen. It's really confusing, and I feel stupid for it. It's embarassing. Like, I'm always paranoid about stuff that would never happen. At least not in my lifetime. I'm afraid of War and space and stuff. I feel insignifigant. I smoke. I have to. Sometimes I'm fine, and then there are those moments that I just FLIP out. I'm afraid I won't get to live a long time, and have kids, and grow old. I'm not really scared of dieing, I'm scared of dieing young. I'm scared of everything just ending. I'm tempted to hit backspace. I don't have a lot of friends any more. I moved away, and I haven't made any new ones. I feel very alone. I'm a Navy Wife so that probablly has something to do with it. I miss when things were simpler. I get really depressed. I feel alone in all of this. Do I NEED therapy? I don't want medication. I really don't. My dad died when i was 17. My memaw died in September 07. She was my best friend. I don't know what to do anymore. I need someone to understand, and make me feel better. This is not me. This is not who I am. I don't want this to be my life. I don't want to worry my life away. 

 Thanks for reading.

Laura