I’m feeling a bit better today. I’m trying to think of a good gift for friend whose birthday is on November 1st.. They love boardgames, Lord of the Rings, DnD, and Ultimate Frisbee. They also have an appreciation for art and poetry, so they’re rather on the creative side. I could get them a set of pens or a book maybe. Something artsy. Maybe a book on Ultimate Frisbee tactics if there is such a thing. I know they probably have a couple copies of LOTR and I have no idea what kinds of boardgames they would want, what kinds are considered good or bad. What else.. They want to go to OSU and become a physical therapist eventually but I know that’s not a passion of theirs really. They’re pretty competitive and love their culture, the music that they love is Quechuan.

I could get them something Quechuan, some music or book for learning the language, maybe just a short history thing so they wouldn’t feel bad about it. I know they’re already so busy and I wouldn’t want them to think they had to learn the language on top of everything else cause they’re kind of sad that they never took the initiative to learn the language. What else could I get them..? I want to get them something nice that they would appreciate, I don’t just want to get them something shitty or just make them a piece of art and call it good. I just wish I knew what the perfect thing was that would make them happy. Clothes is not a good idea… Idk… Maybe I’ll wait for something to come up that they want. I know my other friend would probably be happy with a heated blanket, their birthday is December 10th. I thought of something else I could get them but I don’t remember now… Oh well I guess. I don’t really feel obligated to get anyone else anything for their birthday, at least anyone else who’s birthday is coming up soon-ish.

I don’t have any work in Lit, History, ToK, Spanish, Math, or Physics today thankfully. (I already did everything). Though I’m going to have a test in History soon, the subject in Lit will shift, Spanish I have to do a presentation, Math I’ll have to do a dissertation and the teacher will get mad at me for no reason, and Physics the last Lab I turned in I turned in knowing half the numbers were wrong, and really I already do bad enough on those tests……… I feel like someone who tries and worries as much as I do should just get an automatic A honestly. I’m kind of worried about History because usually that class is easy for me, and I already wrote so much on the essays test subject, but I feel like I’ve forgotten most of the stuff already. Agh. Why is life like this to me? I know. Woe is me (post-irony). I got to hang out with a friend after school today though, which is good. The only good thing about the smoke is the fact that their Ultimate Frisbee practice which they do two hours of everyday gets canceled so I can have fun with them after school.

Idk. JUST the usual with me. I decided to add a circle with todays post because life just keeps going on and on.. I guess that’s kind of my John Green vibe of the day. Or my life vibe also I suppose. Superposition of self across time; just as an object in a digram of one of my physics drawings.