Good evening, DT.
It's been a while since I last blogged here; mainly because things have been going really well, and I didn't have a reason to talk about my life, and those things going on in it.
Things have changed a lot over the past few months; I've gained a girlfriend, some new friends and what I thought was a better life. How wrong was I.
Since we (from here, we'll just call her "K") have been together, things have been going nicely. We've had good times, many of those involving alcohol. As you can imagine, those moment have led to a few instances of passion, and things have escalated pretty quickly in our relationship. A few days ago, she told me she was pregnant. Obviously, this changes things (and I thought that would be for the better)
Since she's told me, it's been nothing but playing on the pregnancy, wanting me to make plans and to start putting money aside (the money thing I don't have an issue with, it's my responsibility as a Father to do that, just like I did last time) – the difference with this one is, I know what to expect, and what to do. You don't make plans to move in together immediately; this isn't anything that you can imagine and it's NOT what we'd need to do. Shit, I don't even know if I want to stay with her at the moment (but I have that sense of 'duty' or whatever to my child, and I'm not sure how she would react to me just going "it's over yadayada" – it's not the kind of person I am.
I'm so confused and my emotions are all over the place. What if things happen like last time? What do I do?
I just need some advice, or even somewhere to rant; either is good.