The thing is I knew I was messed up in the first place but I didn’t realize I was that bad. I’ve been struggling with Anxiety and Depression for years and its a fun little story with the help I have received (note the sarcasm). My anxiety and depression fed each other impacting me in such a horrible way to where I could no longer function or be surrounded by people I used to know. Even today I still cannot go to stores and locations where I feel I may see people I used to see at the high school (I do online school now). To be honest I’m not exactly sure why that is, I don’t know what it is I think will happen but I just can’t deal and have to avoid them.
As I mentioned above I didn’t realize I was that bad. I knew social anxiety disorder, panic disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, and obsessive compulsive disorder were entirely different things. However, I was under the impression that generalized anxiety disorder among their own symptoms meant that you had a little bit of everything, or nearly. You had some of the symptoms of all these disorders. Maybe that is true? I claim to not be certain of anything at this time but by chance I managed to make a connection that it was possible I have each of these issues. Again, I have no clue. I made this discovery at about midnight which is one of the things that lead me to signing up to the tribe at about 2am this morning. I feel confused about a lot of things and in need of help so this is my “first” step.
These are words I needed to write to get them out of my head. I’m excited that I’ll have a place just for this purpose and cannot wait to do more in the near future along with learning more about this site and the people here who use it.