Loneliness is actually a disease you know?  It has dealt with me to the extent that I cringe and feel annoyed when I see couples showing how much they love themselves… especially on the Internet,  it makes me feel awful and it’s a constant reminder that I’m still this lonely girl… eg on instagram, I cant even count how many people I blocked cause they kept showing off their love lives thereby adding to my depression. I know it’s a weird thing to do or feel but I’m just being honest with my feelings… I wish I had a life like theirs … I see them and I’m like, why can’t I be like her? Why can’t he be my boyfriend? What would go wrong if I found true love? Their lives looked simple even though I’m sure they still have their individual struggles but at that moment all I wanted was to be like them….   I don’t know if this means I’m jealous …  but, Yes I really I’m jealous 😞😕😓 … I even stopped watching romantic drama movies cause …….  well, you know!!