I’ve been dealing with some major depression the past 2 weeks straight. Without getting too much into the alcohol piece (I recently relapsed and I’m back in Alcoholics Anonymous), I ended up quitting my corporate job, and moving back in with my Dad in order to save some money while I look for new work.
That being said, I feel as though I’m in a catch 22 right now. I can’t sleep more than 2 hours a night, and when I lay down, my heart just starts pumping. And I’m up all night long… then when it becomes daytime, I’m so depressed, I can’t find the fun in anything that I am doing, and if I do, it only lasts a few minute, then turns into a cloud of depression and anxiety and I just want to leave. It’s horrible, it’s as though I can’t do anything I’m so exhausted, but at the same time, I want to work (I work in IT as a Systems Engineer), but I’m too exhausted to go through the interview process, or even think about going out on an interview.
I’m hoping someone reads this and has been through this and has some advice. I’ve been reading some online blogs, but not sure if anyone has this story or not.
Calling out for help, as hard as it was to post online, in desperate need of some assistance.