I wrote a blog 200 words long and my net fucked up, i now see that maybe someone is telling me that those words were not the ones meant to come out.
I cannot begin to explain how low i feel at the moment but i am glad i found this site again. i lost my granddad to cancer in december and i miss him more then i know. i really wish i could give him one last hug, i really need it now. i took it so forgranted and i cant put in words how sorry i am. I really cut up my leg because i missed him so much and i now i have to live with the scars.
i just found out that a girl i have known for nearly 9 years has stabbed me in the back to some people that i dont even like. she told them i was disgusting and ugly and a waste of life. what makes me laugh is i already know that i dont need her to tell other people that! i feel so low and my heart hurts so much because of it. i dont understand why someone could do that to someone they "love" she said i was like her sister as she had none. how i helped her and saved her.
she cut up her arm and i stopped her from bleeding to death, i worried and stressed and gave up my time to help her when things got bad. i helped her.
i thought she would help me when i got low, when i needed help, why wasn’t she there why didnt she help!!! why does no one see the real me!!!