So either my medication is working, therapy is working, or my latest major obsession has run it's course. Maybe all threethings have made a contribution. Iam not going to question it too much. I am justgoing to be thankful.Now that I am thinking more clearly I need to do something to try to stop this from happening in the future. I need to read some of the books that have been suggested to me and start meditating. I also want to start going back to the gym. My body feels so old. I am no spring chicken but I am not as old as I feel. I need to take care of myself. I deserve it.

My obsessions come in spurts. I could go weeks, months, or even years without a major episode. But when a major episode hits look out. I will sit and worry until I forget to eat. I have lost up to 20 pounds in less than 3 monthsbefore just by forgettingto eat.I don't want to laugh at anything. I don't listen to a word anyone says. I just drift away to another place and dwell. If I make up my mind that I have a certain disease then I have it. No matter what the doctor says. Maybe he's wrong so then I will go to another. These obsessions in the past have just run their course but with my last obsession shook me so hard because it was a horrible thought about someone I love dearly. It didn't matter how much evidence was presented to me I STILL continued to think the worst about him. It is such a horrible feelling. 🙁 I am NEVER going back there again. I have got to do something to change this. I can honestly say that at this moment I feel better than I have felt in about 9 months. My hope is to keep getting better. 🙂