Here is my story, I’m 18 and I struggle with depression, anxiety, and ADHD. I learned I had these at a young age but little did I know I’d still struggle with these more as I got older. I never imagined I’d be where I am now. At my age I am now…18. Having a drivers license to buy nicotine to help me relax and with my panic attacks. My mom a catholic teacher and my dad being the old school farmer, well they found out. I have a certain image they want me to be and I can never fit that. I’m always yelled at, criticized, blamed for all my actions. I yell back and well in the end those two combined together well I got kicked out and I had to move in with my biological dad who was never there for me or raised me in the beginning. It was hard at first, leaving my little sister behind the one that kept me alive.. literally alive because I will sadly admit I have tried to commit suicide multiple times. But, her growing up without me and telling the story of how I died I couldn’t go through with it. Well my first week here has been okay I’ve gotten settled into my new room. I can still admit I have suicidal thoughts but typing,  journalism, and online counseling has helped a lot since I and my family can’t pay for it. Not to mention I have insomnia so I’m always stuck in my thoughts well… how I got to this website is a long story. I was debating on taking my own life, never feeling enough, useless, meeting no ones expectations. In the end it tore me apart and an online crisis line who I definitely recommend you text “HOME” to 741741. A real person will talk to you, he/she calmed me down and referred me to this site. I still struggle everyday with my demons, anxiety and depression. I’m moving forward staying hopefully and finding my purpose here. I know I can’t meet everyone expectations especially my parents but I try. You are unique and special and here for a reason you where here for a reason never forget that. People will hate you and try to drag you down but all you can do is be yourself and if it’s not good enough for them screw them and find your self worth because you are here for a reason. Believe it or not you will beat these demons one way or another and you will fight.