I wasn't going to write a blog about this, because I don't believe in speaking ill of anyone, but it's been bothering me a lot. It's kind of a long story, but I've been 'friends' with someone since high school. We both deal with problems so we would chat from time to time. Well a few weeks ago I texted this person, and I get a text back saying that they have passed away. Obviously I was devestated. For three days I mourned the loss of my friend only to find out that this person is NOT dead. This person FAKED their own death for attention. And to add insult to injury they have the nerve to message me and call me names because I'm quote "gonna throw our friendship away because of something like this." Um…YES. Yes I am. 'something like this' is something that is the most messed up garbage I've ever heard of. The fact that this person would do this shows me 1. that they were never a true friend..a TRUE friend would never do such a thing. Who needs enemies when you have friends like that. 2. that this particular person has problems that are far more severe than I do, and 3. that they have no respect what-so-ever for me. A 'friend' would not fake their own death and let me sit here and cry and be shaken up for THREE whole days before they come back and try to play it off as no big deal.

This has been bothering me excessively. It's put me under soooo much un-needed stress. This person knows of all the stresses in my life. They also know that I've been diagnosed with major depresson amongst other things, and they still don't see a problem with what they did.

Now I am happy that this person is alright, and I honestly wish them the best in life. I pray they find the Lord.

However, I have no desire to EVER speak with this person again. And it sickens me that this person is trying to make me feel guilty about ending the friendship. I didn't end it. They ended it when they pulled this manipulating, disgusting stunt for attention.

I won't be made to feel bad. I did nothing wrong.

I just wanted to get this off my chest. It's been on my mind for a long time, and I felt like I needed to vent. I almost didn't write it because I don't want it coming off as me not being sensitive, or of me speaking ill of someone. That's not my intention. Like I said before, I wish this person the best. I hope they seek help. But I know it's not my job to fix them.

For my own wellbeing I have chosen to cut ties with this person altogether. No one deserves to go through such emotional turmoil because of someone's imature games.