I\'ve been in similar situations more times than I count. I think that for the most part parents feel a number of emotions at once when it comes to a child with serious anxiety issues. Frustration seems to always be the most obvious. There is very seldom an ability on the part of a parent for empathy as those who have not experienced anxiety simply cannot begin to understand what it is and how utterly debilitating it can become. You mentioned that your mother has had her own issues with anxiety. There is always the possibility that her frustration/anger/exasperation towards you stems from a sense of guilt on her part or from a very real sadness in seeing elements of herself which she does not like in you. It sounds to me that your parents certainly do love you. Remember that the opposite of love is not hate, its apathy. If your parents didn\'t care, they wouldn\'t even be arguing with you or waking you up in the first place. Baby steps. I am really nobody to offer advice as I have really advanced so little in the past 7 years, but I have learned that baby steps can lead to small victories, small advances. I can almost assure you that your mother is not \”done\” in any, way, shape or form. They want to see you get better. It is painful for them to see you hurt. I remember the first time my sister saw after I came home from Iraq. I was having a bad anxiety attack and she just could not understand how or why I wasn\'t responding to her attempts to console me. My whole life before the anxiety my sister had always been able to brighten my day or make me feel better about something. I explained to her afterwards that it simply doesn\'t work that way with panic. She still doesn\'t understand – nor do any of my family. They try, but they cannot empathize b/c panic/anxiety is simply impossible to understand for those who have not been through it. I hope that I have been able to lend some perspective and offer some help. Hang in there. There is a community here to help.