I have challenged my OCD in ways that weren’t possible even a week ago. Instead of hiding behind the fears, I recently began to deal with them directly. Once more I discovered that my OCD has no real effect on me if I choose to face it and deal with it directly.
There are times when I feel I can’t read certain news sites, eat certain foods, or even walk in a certain way, because of the fear of weight gain. I wrote last week that I thought I was becoming anorexic because this fear was becoming all that I thought about. I would spend hours with it in the back of my mind no matter how hard I tried to ignore it. The more I tried to deal with it by simply thinking it “away” the more it remained.