I just want to share my story. I feel very alone in this and I hope to find someone who is like me and worries like me.
Im 18 and in university. I have have had OCD for years now and it runs in my family however not the same phobia. Mine is of blood but just menstrual blood. It's not the worry of catching anything. Just that is that type of blood. I dread every period. I cry and leading up to my peroid i just constantly worry and think about how im going to deal with it when i come on. I want to stop my periods and im on the pill but cant delay it forever. I get anxious when im on that ive touched things after going to the loo. I think its all dirty. Even when im not on i hate sitting on chairs because other people who have been on their periods have sat on them. What if blood got on to the chair? I am constantly worrying. I change my clothes alot. And when I have my period i am worse. I feel like all of my clothes are contaminated and that i am distgusting. I try not to go out when im on my period and i wont let my boyfriend touch my lower half of my body when im on. even though i have clothes on. I hate toilets because i know people have used them when they have been on their period. and i just can't cope anymore.
My mum understands and my nan. But everyone else thinks im weird. and i know i am. I clean my room with wipes all the time but it still feels distgusting. I wont let anyone but my boyfriend on my bed. My whole family knows not to, but i feel so bad about it. Can someone please just help me. even a littlebit of sense. I know im being silly. I really hate OCD and im taking psychology so i should know better but its so difficult.
Anyone else share my worries?