Today K asked me out to get a drink for my birthday. I thought that was really sweet. He said I don't have to if I don't want to. Very ironic. I told him I do want to but it won't be til next week because I have a very busy week. Really it's because of my hair. I need to get it fixed first.

My auctions on eBay were even a bigger failure than I expected. One person bid on something and to ship it to Canada would cost me more than I even made on it. I relisted the item and told them to just go ahead and leave me negative feedback. I am used to negative feedback 1) Because people are assholes and 2) Because I really suck at business. All business. I suck at everything, but that is besides the point.

I was so infuriated when I found out the seller was from Canada and even more mad at myself for not taking the precautions. I began throwing things and having a fit. The ONLY thing that stops my rage when I get like that is a drink. But I'm not going shopping til tomorrow for booze. I also don't want to drink until the weekend, but in that case I would have had one to calm down. My parents were asking me why I was going nuts and I told them what happened. I really don't fucken care about the negative feedback anymore.

I had half a bag of chips and a huge eggplant parmasean with lots of cheese. I am going to finish the chips for dessert. I don't care AT ALL about my weight til I get my hair fixed. I'm so ugly right now I could be 300 ilbs and it would not matter. Once my hair is fixed I will try to eat better and start working out again. That is my goal, anyway.