Thinking positively is hard but thinking negative is easy.

Whenever something horrible happens, people tend to only think about the bad points and don't realize the good or deny it. It is hard to think the positive things about yourself unless someone reminds you of it. It is much more harder if you don't listen and build a wall between yourself and the people around you.

When you are under depression, you don't realize how much people are there for you and how much they actually care for you. It pains me to see them being pushed away and not appreciated. Not only is it hard for you but it is also hard for them because they try their best to cheer you up and look at the good side, telling you to move on and not worry about anything else. If you continue to deny and not listen, eventually the people who care for you, will walk away and won't bother with you again. I'm sure this is not what you was expecting right? I can easily notice what goes on in that mind. You want attention, love and support. However, you have done it the wrong way.

On the other hand, if there are people who still care (even if you continuously push them away), you must feel very lucky. In fact you are very lucky because they still continue to be with you no matter how many times you ignore them, no matter how many times you deny them and no matter how many times you don't bother listening to them. You must appreciate and accept their love and feelings for you. You must open your eyes much more wider to see this side of everything.

Many people do not like attention seekers. The rest of the people don't care about that little problem. Grasp what you have and don't let go. Appreciate what you have been given and don't throw it away. Let go of that fear and accept the love that has been kept waiting. Always think about every single person in your circle otherwise you won't have one in the end.

This is a little rant I wanted to share. I have been bothered by a friend who is currently under depression and sadly out of control, mind and state. I will still continue to support him (unless this is all one big fat joke..) and one day when he comes back to me, I will tell him exactly how I feel and how everyone feels. So when he finally opens his eyes wide enough to see that, I will be at ease and tell myself "You did a good job. You fought well."

This whole thing applies to me as well. I am still fighting for everyone in my life, a battle between me and my life.