First of all…i want to thank everyone who has been supportive of me during this rough patch of my ocd….whew…how exhausting and painful it has been. I had a question, …when i was first hospitalized for ocd….it was regarding sexual harm to my daughter. that night i was having so much anxiety and panic…i couldn't sleep at all. i didn't know i had ocd yet. my dad took me to the hospital…i remember telling him that my body felt sexually aroused down below….almost to the point of orgasm. That bothered me but then i attributed it to really high anxiety or something else. i just read on wikapedia under sexual obsessions that anxiety and sexual arousal don't go together. but that nearly 40 percent of sufferers reported some kind of physiological response…..including erections, lubrication for females, and orgasm. i was just wondering if any of you have experienced this or have any more insight on the issue.
Also, i'm really wanting to combat this recent sexual ocd. it has gotten to the point where any groinal sensation, whether it be a pulse, a tightening of the muscle (like holding it when you have to pee), or putting my hand in my pocket, or leaning against something………….all of these things and maybe more…with the thought of one of my daughters or another child hitting my mind at the same time…. this stuff is causing alot of anxiety…i feel like i can't even move without noticing what's going on down there….and trying to put a different thought in my head at the same time…which works only part of the time. How do i fight this type of ocd….i do not want anything to do with my kids or any other sexually……it's even really hard to have sex with my wife at all sometimes with these images in my head. Thank you all for your support and input…..God bless you! By the way…can you believe i'm a therapist? lol i think i do a pretty good job at counseling others….but when it comes to my own ocd….wow…its very difficult.