First of all…i want to thank everyone who has been supportive of me during this rough patch of my ocd….whew…how exhausting and painful it has been. I had a question, …when i was first hospitalized for ocd….it was regarding sexual harm to my daughter. that night i was having so much anxiety and panic…i couldn't sleep at all. i didn't know i had ocd yet. my dad took me to the hospital…i remember telling him that my body felt sexually aroused down below….almost to the point of orgasm. That bothered me but then i attributed it to really high anxiety or something else. i just read on wikapedia under sexual obsessions that anxiety and sexual arousal don't go together. but that nearly 40 percent of sufferers reported some kind of physiological response…..including erections, lubrication for females, and orgasm. i was just wondering if any of you have experienced this or have any more insight on the issue.
Also, i'm really wanting to combat this recent sexual ocd. it has gotten to the point where any groinal sensation, whether it be a pulse, a tightening of the muscle (like holding it when you have to pee), or putting my hand in my pocket, or leaning against something………….all of these things and maybe more…with the thought of one of my daughters or another child hitting my mind at the same time…. this stuff is causing alot of anxiety…i feel like i can't even move without noticing what's going on down there….and trying to put a different thought in my head at the same time…which works only part of the time. How do i fight this type of ocd….i do not want anything to do with my kids or any other sexually……it's even really hard to have sex with my wife at all sometimes with these images in my head. Thank you all for your support and input…..God bless you! By the way…can you believe i'm a therapist? lol i think i do a pretty good job at counseling others….but when it comes to my own ocd….wow…its very difficult.
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I may have suggested this to you before but, have you done ERP on these obsessions? The OCD Workbook guides you through it. Feel free to contact me if you want to.
Just because we can help others, doesn't mean that we never get sick and need help ourselves. I've read more stories on here about people who could help others, but couldn't do anything for themselves. I wish you well!!!
Im going to tell you somthing, and this is going to work and its going to stop every little horrible thought thats going on in your head. IT's NOT YOU ITS YOUR OCD. I have had this same problem, anything I would see or think i'd strat thinking "did that turn me on?" "Why would i think that?"" Did i just get a feeling down town". But of course when you are constatly think there is something sick wrong with you, your going to start to belive it. So just know its not you. I suffered with that for years, I wanted to kill myself. I wanted to end it all i felt so horible, i couldn't take. So i finaly after years of hiding it i let it out. and then i relized its not me its my OCD. Somtimes i still get those obsessions but i just tell myself no nopers your not going there you don't think that. So just belive you don't think it, just try, ok.
i have iived for years (13 to be exact) having unwanted sexual thoughts and obsessions. ive felt the groinal twinge and thought it meant i was aroused by my thoughts. i only found out 3 years ago i had ocd. you are not your thoughts and sometimes twinges down there just happen,it dosent mean you want to hurt anyone. keep telling yourself " its not me its my ocd" that mantra helped me out alot. i am thinking of you and send good wishes your way.
Part of the OCD is suffering with unwanted thoughts and feelings. I have certainly suffered with them. I have also experienced the genital \”weirdness\” that accomapnies these things. This does not mean we wish to act on them. As a therapist, you have likely explained this to others with no problem. But applying reason to one's own experience is much more difficult. You are not a bad father for having OCD. The thoughts we have are the most unthinkable and disturbing to us. We're not wired like most people. Be kind to yourself.