yes me again,,I just need someone to talk to and cant find anybody, the family just dont get it and upsets hubby when i get like this and just needed a person to talk to so i am writing since i caouldnt find anyone. I am beginning to feel isolated in this situation I am in and that no one gets it because it seems as if no one cares.

BUT I DO and I want to beat this so bad and get over all of it and be well once again and be happy again and live life again, because as i have said before i am not living i am just existing and I will not ever be the same and i wish i could just flip a switch and be better and be over this for good, as long as i sheild myself from triggers it will be okay but how cani do that when all you hear about is death? I have posted and asked people on FB not to mention deaths or anything like that to me but yet they still do knowing it will cause me great upset. I just dont get it why can they be so vain in this for me?

may have to not get on FB for a long time and just get on here and try to get better because I definitely wont by watching the news or listening to other peoples ailments or having hearing anything about death or sickness.

I have often wondered if i could sign up for ssi because it is to that point i believe since i dont want to go to work or leave home, sometimes i seriously think if i was to quit my job i would be okay because i would know i dont have to leave the safety of my home and my husband.

The life i was once living is no more and i just want it back,,,,,,