She's been a good friend…and she liked me, and I liked her…we had been talking almost every day… we were good for each other, helping each other deal with our various forms of inner demons…but I haven't heard from her in the last couple of days, and she hasn't responded to any of my messages…how did I scare this one away?…What did I do this time?….Did she tire of my telling her about my depression-related woes?…Was it something I said to her last time we were in touch with each other?…I have other theories, but won't go into them right now….All I know is that if I scared her away, it sucks….I have a history of doing this, though…..In the last few years, I've scared away friends who couldn't deal with me being too open about my depression/anxiety attack-related issues…I once scared away a VERY DEAR friend–perhaps my best friend at the time– many years ago, because, well, in a nutshell, I believe it was because I ended up falling in love with her, among other things, and needless to say, the feeling wasn't mutual…..however, that story has turned out better for me: Her and I reconnected via Facebook after being out of touch with each other for over 10 years, and now we are good friends again, so I am happy about that…but the ones I have lost, the ones I have scared away, well…I know I should just accept it and move on, but I hate losing friends….I think it's because I'm just an overly-sentimental person, and I hate losing people that have been good friends and have been important to me….Some people disappear from our lives and just aren't meant to come back into our lives, I guess, but I obviously have a hard time accepting that.; If this particular friend is gone, that won't be any different…
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I am sorry to hear, Gomizzou. You may not have lost this last person. People leave the site, take a break, for some down alone time and return. Try visualizing a positive outcome..
Thank you for being able to relate Eden..