All together now, Smile, even if you are faking it, find one thing to laugh about.  Everyone take care of yourself today, live as if it was your last day, dance as if no one is watching, .  Let's all pull together and pool our strength to make it one more day.

I'm really trying to be optimistic about the future.  I'm going to my happy job today to earn a little bit of money, that I won't see for another week and a half.  I need to focus on that and continue to do well.  It's foreign to me that I enjoy where I work and the people I work with and I am in week 4 there.  I am in great fear of losing my home due to I am 3 months behind on my mortgage and the pay I received last Friday only covered my basic expenses, food and fuel to drive the 45 minutes to work each day.  I am really scared, I am constantly dwelling on the fact that I may lose my house and what I am going to do with my 2 cats if I do.  Fortunately, I have family and friends that would open their home to me but I am so ashamed of having to rely on them.  What happened to me?  I use to be successful and full of life, proud to do everything on my own (financially, emotionally, going places by myself, on vacation, shopping, biking, movies, dinner, art shows, church).  Somewhere I lost myself in my depression, lonliness and anger and avoid nearly everything.  I am doing better with spending time with friends and family, I am very fortunate they are all very supportive of what I have been through and don't remind me of the less that smart choices that I have made over the past year or so.  Where do I go now . . .  I will just handle today, go to work, continue to do a great job (as my sup, managers and co-workers say) and enjoy the day as much as possible.