okay….so i'm like in rage mode right now. mom just got SENT home for something that was out of context with the princiaple (ruthy).

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okay so mom and ruthy were talking and things got a bit emotional aparently. but she wasn't the one who started crying ruthy was, so she went to huge and comfort her.

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then a d.a.r.e officer walked by and over her something out of context, (it wasn't her fucking business anyway) so just walked right in and asked what was going on. then asked to speak to ruthy alone.

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when she talked to mom she was bacially intergating her, about her meds, things going on,etc. Ruthy wouldn't admit it was HER who started crying and caused what happen.

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you know why? because she's a fucking whipped dog by the district. I told mom to trust NO ONE on a personal level there again.

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so NOW, she's on 'relief of duty" ruthy and the vice had to WALK her to HER room so she could tell them what would be needed to done and cancelled why she was gone.

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THEN they took her badge and keys and shes not allowed on any orange county district school or can't talk to anyone from there.

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WTF, it wasn't like she was selling drugs to her class! that d.a.r.e officer had NO authority about what she did. stupid bitch,

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so mom well home atleast ten days, then have a hearing. she's calling the union right now because it's gone to far, she was bullied by peers found out she has to teach 1st grade next year and lost a 'friend'

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me and mom have are problems but this isn't right. at all. it's massacre by words. i know the feeling of being ganged up on and just told what you did wrong, what you should be doing, who you should be, all flaws pointed out or pain not believed.

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i may be only 21, but i've gone to hell and back since i was 6. i know pain, not being able to trust anyone. not wanting to go and face the world, silent screaming in the dark at 4am tears staining my face. cutting or burning to see if i'm alive.

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my eating disorer giving me comfort and insults. depression so crippling that you can't even move. anxiety so bas you pass out and look like an idiot.

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I KNOW pain. and no one can invaidate that! would i do that to someone else? OF COURSE NOT. because i know what it is to not be believed.

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i'm sorry guys i'm just very angry right now, at the situation, at myself, at God….it's like a volcano in my just erupted. and it's all coming out.