I have to admit it's been a long time since I've written on here…or frankly even been on here. I was honestly avoiding it when I was feeling good because I was afraid that by reading other blogs I woul start to feel anxious agaiin. Sure it doesn't make sense, but when times are good we don't want to go back to the bad. I was sure I would jinx myself. Well, I think I've done the complete opposite. I've ignored my health, I've been getting little sleep, working overtime without lunches and running myself ragged. I thought I was strong enough to get through it all. I also thought I could ignore everything I've learned in therapy. Sure, I was still going to therapy and practicing things I learned, but I wasn't being mindful. I was ignoring all the symptoms my body was giving me. Then BAM! Tuesday it started happening all over again. It felt like an elephant sitting on my chest. My heart was beating SO fast. I was nauseated and feeling ridiculously scared. The feelings, the panic, the obsessions were back. I visited my therapist Tuesday who confirmed for me that I can't expect to not take care of myself and everything to be okay. She talked me down and I felt better, but since then I've still been really anxious. I feel like I'm going crazy and I feel like I'm going to have a full blown relapse. Worse, my parents are flying into town this weekend and I'm scared I will be a hot mess while they are here. I have come so far, I don't want to go back. I am so so scared right now. Before, I knew I had relapsed b/c i needed a medication change, but this time it feels like it's going to be a permanent slide. How does everyone else deal with setbacks like this? I've been fine for a couple months, I really don't want to go through this again.
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The “Listen” thing WAS NOT directed at anyone here!
Misconceptions, , OCD, Anxiety, Career, Divorce, Infidelity, Personality Disorder, Stress, Suicide, Therapy, 0
I have a counselling book. I've been studying up on my counselling skills, the book is called "Counselling Skills...
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So im new to this site! and i guess im supposed to share what im suffering from with my...
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CRASH I can sense myself spiraling, Losing my confidence. My thoughts are slipping into an inescapable cycle of questions...
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I went to a therapist last night. My mother started sessions with him after she found out my stepfather...
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i actually attempted to be a normal person today and to talk with people about how i've been feeling,...
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No One Ever Left Alive 1985
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No One Ever Left Alive In Nineteen Hundred Eighty Five Current mood: thirsty Category: Art and Photography After dawn crept...
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thymeoperator, , OCD, Anxiety, 1
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I'm going through the same thing. I have been doing alright for a few months. My OCD was there but it wasn't bad. It was manageable and didn't seem like it was running my life. Well for the past week or so I feel so out of control. My obsessions are soooo bad and and my compulsions even worse. I don't know what to do anymore. Nothing I do will make it better. I can't tell you this craziness will ever go away but I can say that things will get better. They have to 🙂
Thanks Joanie. Even knowing someone else feels like I do at the moment helps. I know that sounds terrible–I mean of course I wish we could all snap our fingers and get rid of this crap…but it helps to know others out there can sympathize. And I am going to have to agree–things can only get better. Trying to take a positve stance right now. Hard, but I'm trying..