So today I made the mistake of bringing skittles as a snack to my study group session. Me and three other people study college algebra every Tuesday and Thursday night in the library or somewhere on campus.
When I eat skittles or any other candy like that m&ms; stuff like that, I always sort them in color groups and make sure there are an even number of candies in each color group. I usually end up giving away most of the bag trying to get rid of the extra candies that throw off the groups. So tonight I did just that and then was left with the task of deciding how to eat them, what order and how many. I usually eat them according to the colors of the rainbow (red, orange, yellow, green, purple) and always try to leave an even number in each group. So I did decide eventually (with some help from my comrades who think i'm insane, but just LOVE a good distraction from homework), to eat all the orange skittles – leaving 4 piles instead of 5 AND each pile was then combined into two groups of opposite colors, ; (a green/red pile and a yellow/purple pile). I felt pretty accomplished BUT then had to decide which pile to eat first, SO I was going to flip a coin – but couldn't pick which pile should be heads and which should be tails. So my friend flips a coin determining the result of which pile will be heads on the real coin flip, determining what pile gets eaten first. I can be very indecisive.
45min after opening the bag I had finally gotten a system down for eating skittles – and no homework was done. My friends don't know I really do have OCD but they might have an idea now. This is just the kind of distractions my mind goes through every bloody day. Today's was taken a little more light-hearted than most. I know you probably have a headache just from reading it – but it's my thought process. I DID feel acomplished afterward and yet – a little angry once I realized my OCD had taken over a good 45min chunck of my life, which kinda made me mad/depressedd/hopeless. Anyone ever have that? You do a compulsion and at first feel better – til you realize you just lost another battle? Thoughts? Comments? I'm hoping if anything you at least got a laugh out it.
Til next time!