Since I’ve been gone, it’s been a helluvah ride. I became depressed and started acting out (badly). Tried to kill myself once and have considered doing it again. Haven’t heard anything back from my boyfriend, but I keep trying to find him. Struggling so much. Think I know what I want to do as far as gender, but I’m holding back, for some odd reason (it’s femboy, BTW). Yesterday, I’ve been with this foster family for a week, so I’m angry. And the girls at the house keep being negative, so I’m having problems with that. People don’t really get empaths. Turns out that performance didn’t end up on Fox. I feel selfish. I really do. But, I’m really emotional. I keep crying and wish it’d stop. I think maybe I’m lovesick/homesick. But, I can’t say anything. It’s a tricky situation and if I were to say something, they’d know all about all of this. It’s not bad. It’s just that I used to live with him and so the place I’m staying would throw a fit. EVERYTHING’S upsetting me right now. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know where to turn. I-I just am so…