I feel stupid for falling for a charming guy, especially when I was drunk.

I’ve learned from one of my really good guy friends not to because they get what they want and break your heart afterwards. And I’ve been really good about not falling for those guys.

But I failed this time. And now I’m completely a wreck at the moment because I thought we could make out and it’d just be a casual thing.

Of course, girls (most girls) can’t just do the casual thing without getting emotionally attached.

Now I’m being ignored and I can’t stand it. I feel like I’ve done something wrong, while I know I haven’t.

I just can’t stand people not wanting to talk to me.

And what makes me even more angry is that I’m not even really attracted to him. I would NEVER EVER date him! So why am I so sad? I deserve SOOO much better! and I CAN do so much better.

Just because he’s a football player doesn’t mean anything. I’m in university, so actually it just means he’s a dumb jock amongst a bunch of intellectuals. Right now he may be living the life, mainly because he’s in first year, and basically I should be in my 4th, but when he’s gets into upper year, he won’t be as cool at all. And I’m so much smarter than he is. Well not that I should put him down, but I’m a smart female in engineering! That’s a great accomplishment that I should be proud of. He should be lucky to have gotten with a girl like me! I shouldn’t be shit-talking or putting other people down, but I’m not really. I’m just sort of stating facts. Biased facts maybe, but facts none-the-less.

Ok I just think I talked myself out of this frenzy. I have class in 2.5 hours, but I only went to bed 4.5 hours ago. Hopefully I’ll get up. If not, I’m taking a mental health day (like in Nick and Norah’s Infinite Playlist <3).

If anyone has opinions on the situation or suggestions, I’d love to hear them!