Today was the big day with the client in town. I had meetings to run and people to entertain at lunch and dinner. I kept my stuff together, I paid attention during the meetings, I was a leader, and when it came time for the small talk at the meals, I didn’t sink into my shell. Instead I was pleasant and helped keep the convesation going. The client seems very happy with how thing are going and I only have one more day to go before they are gone. Best of all, I’m not too stressed. I’m actually more anxious about having to drive in the snow tomorrow than anything else!!!
I am disappointed, though, because I was really hoping to hear from a guy on a dating website who has caught my eye. We have already exchanged a few emails and seem to be a good fit. But because of my various mood states which resulted in me feeling too overwhelmed, lazy, indifferent, or unconfident to write, I took a few days to get back to him. Now I’m afraid he’ll have dismissed me entirely. I really thought I’d hear from him today. Well, it is my own fault. If I had only gotten my act together then and wrote him promptly. A common courtesty. I won’t make the same mistake in the future. In the meantime, I’ll try to forget about him so I don’t continue to get my hopes up, and continue to be disappointed.
I slept poorly last night, waking up many times wide awake, and today I felt irritable at moments. It seems like there are more hypomanic symptoms breaking through the depression. Probably nothing to worry about. Fortunately I see my pDoc tomorrow so I can bring her into the loop.
Take care everyonel Sweet dreams.