Thanks so much for everyone who left me a comment and support regarding my blog yesterday titled "Aprils Fool". Unfortunately, it is real and not some damn prank, god if only it was so. I have no idea what my future holds. Part of me thinks that my wife has gone crazy. We talked almost all of yesterday. I made her a nice dinner and basically pleaded my case of why after so long a marriage am I not given a chance to make her feel more loved? The beauty of an actual "relationship" is that you are not going to feel in love all the time. In my humblest opinion a relationship is having love for the other person, and yet falling in and out of love with each other over and over. I mean sometimes "life" gets in the way. Its impossible to be romantic and spontaneous all the time. And yes there are times after running my business that I come homa and I am tiired after taking down huge oak trees or landscaping and want to relax in front of the TV. But then I also took time to go out on "dates" with my wife. Or take the motorcycle and just ride till we ran out of gas or found somewhere new to go. How she can tell me she "loves" someone over talking and texting on the phone for a month and a half is beyond me. And now after she says that she might be falling in love with me again, this jackass has decided to fly into Tampa on Friday and spend the weekend with her. Honestly, at this point – I can't make her love me -its her chioce to make. But I know that I have done everything to show her how I feel. And that had I known that she was so unhappy before this I would have done even more to make sure she felt loved. So ladies – if you are the least bit unhappy in your relationship, please tell your man. We are just sometimes stupid and assume because things are good and on "cruise control" that everything is allright. I have no idea what my future holds. I know that I have not gone down without "fighting" for the love I believe in. She says she needs to see this guy this weekend and find out where her feelings really are. Whether its right or wrong I'm letting her go with him. I deserve the best that love has to offer. I am a great guy, who loves more than than all the stars in the heavens and longer than the infinite area of space. Its going to be a loooooooong damned weekend. But if you truly love something, set it free – if it comes back it loves you too.
The Day After
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i agree with the girls ,i think its just infactuation,sometimes women and men need to prove something to themselves i think she will find she loves you more than the person makes her think she feels love for him,you are a good man to give her this chance ,alot of men wouldn't even consider it and she would just run off .