I am going to type how I feel right now, and basically everyday. I have the best boyfriend in the world, a great mom and dad, and an awesome family. But why do I feel like I’m losing here. Don’t know if it’s making sense but I’m losing myself. I wake up tired after a full 8 hours of sleep. I go to bed late, thinking that it’s normal. I have panic attacks. I lost motivation to start spring semester for college. I cry at random moments (only when I’m alone). I try to make it seem like I’m okay but deep down I’m falling apart. I promise I’m not suicidal. Though I do think I’m better off gone. Don’t get me wrong. I won’t ever hurt myself. I’m just stuck in this loop whole because the devil is just eating me alive when all I’m trying to do is get better. I’m tired. Sooo fucking tired.
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Ugly stupid fat drug addicted me..
troubelled, , Depression, Obesity, Relationships, Sex Therapy, 0
Well.i havebt been on in a while but im back chattin with yall i have made.some dumb dumb choices...
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Numb
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I don't really know what to write today. I think I'll just give you all an update on what's...
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Coming Clean
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Warning: Post may be triggering to some. I guess I could blog and write about things until my fingers...
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Getting A Life, Dream
Di, , Depression, Career, Relationships, 0
Every since D. told me to get a job, it triggered all there pissy feelings, of course. I've been...
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MBSR
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I'm so glad I decided to go to my class today. I've been taking a Mindfulness Based Stress and...
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The Public
Manderz, , Depression, Lesbian, Gay, LGBTQ, 0
Two years have come and gone. My efforts have afforded me nothing, save my pen and paper. There I...
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Ick…
thebadkitty, , Depression, Addiction, Depression, 0
I don’t want to make any decisions. I don’t want to figure anything. I don’t want to know, or...
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A Lesson About Today
unknown94, , Depression, Anxiety, Depression, Eating Disorder, Suicide, 0
I try to not think about my life passing by. Sometimes I do feel the air and me aging...
I know how you feel, I feel the same way. Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help
Thank you so much, everyone! I have spoken to many different therapists. Still trying to find the right one. I don’t know what’s holding me back but I really appreciate all your comments. I just found this website yesterday and I don’t regret using it
I feel the same and I’m much older. All I do is fight it every day, this consumes energy but I cannot stop fighting.
When I have something that keeps me busy the evil goes underground (do not disappear) and reemerge sooner or later.
Up and down, I keep resisting. Hope you resist too.
Thank you so much, everyone! I have spoken to many different therapists. Still trying to find the right one. I don’t know what’s holding me back but I really appreciate all your comments. I just found this website yesterday and I don’t regret using it
I know how you feel. I try to find the positive energy in thinking about the good in my life but the negative thoughts soon prop up unconsciously and tear it all apart.
Just know that like all things this sadness is temporary. Just hold on until they fade and you can breathe again, then do everything in your power to prevent it from happening again.
Love you 🙂
Thank you so much, everyone! I have spoken to many different therapists. Still trying to find the right one. I don’t know what’s holding me back but I really appreciate all your comments. I just found this website yesterday and I don’t regret using it.