I am going to type how I feel right now, and basically everyday. I have the best boyfriend in the world, a great mom and dad, and an awesome family. But why do I feel like I’m losing here. Don’t know if it’s making sense but I’m losing myself. I wake up tired after a full 8 hours of sleep. I go to bed late, thinking that it’s normal. I have panic attacks. I lost motivation to start spring semester for college. I cry at random moments (only when I’m alone). I try to make it seem like I’m okay but deep down I’m falling apart. I promise I’m not suicidal. Though I do think I’m better off gone. Don’t get me wrong. I won’t ever hurt myself. I’m just stuck in this loop whole because the devil is just eating me alive when all I’m trying to do is get better. I’m tired. Sooo fucking tired.