I am going to type how I feel right now, and basically everyday. I have the best boyfriend in the world, a great mom and dad, and an awesome family. But why do I feel like I’m losing here. Don’t know if it’s making sense but I’m losing myself. I wake up tired after a full 8 hours of sleep. I go to bed late, thinking that it’s normal. I have panic attacks. I lost motivation to start spring semester for college. I cry at random moments (only when I’m alone). I try to make it seem like I’m okay but deep down I’m falling apart. I promise I’m not suicidal. Though I do think I’m better off gone. Don’t get me wrong. I won’t ever hurt myself. I’m just stuck in this loop whole because the devil is just eating me alive when all I’m trying to do is get better. I’m tired. Sooo fucking tired.
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I know how you feel, I feel the same way. Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help
Thank you so much, everyone! I have spoken to many different therapists. Still trying to find the right one. I don’t know what’s holding me back but I really appreciate all your comments. I just found this website yesterday and I don’t regret using it
I feel the same and I’m much older. All I do is fight it every day, this consumes energy but I cannot stop fighting.
When I have something that keeps me busy the evil goes underground (do not disappear) and reemerge sooner or later.
Up and down, I keep resisting. Hope you resist too.
Thank you so much, everyone! I have spoken to many different therapists. Still trying to find the right one. I don’t know what’s holding me back but I really appreciate all your comments. I just found this website yesterday and I don’t regret using it
I know how you feel. I try to find the positive energy in thinking about the good in my life but the negative thoughts soon prop up unconsciously and tear it all apart.
Just know that like all things this sadness is temporary. Just hold on until they fade and you can breathe again, then do everything in your power to prevent it from happening again.
Love you 🙂
Thank you so much, everyone! I have spoken to many different therapists. Still trying to find the right one. I don’t know what’s holding me back but I really appreciate all your comments. I just found this website yesterday and I don’t regret using it.