I have read, and re-read a lot on anxiety. I have to agree with most, that it is a mental thing.

I know for me, I find myself "thinking" the wrong things, and that starts the anxiety. My problem, is breathing.

13 yrs ago, at the dentist office, I had a bad reaction to the gas. Two days later, I was coming home from an event, and ended up in the ER. Hyperventilated. They gave me meds, cant remember what, and they too made me feel so weird that the episode lasted for 2 or 3 days. I began to decline in my health, saw more dr's than I can say. Tried all kinds of meds. Finally after being deathly sick for about a year, a dr finally diagnosed me with Graves disease.

Had my thyroid taken out, and started a 6 yr long battle to be well again.

Still not feeling up to par, a dr prescribed me Zanax. Two yrs later, I was on 4 to 6 FULL bars a day. It was slowly eating away at my liver and killing me. I went to another dr. He helped me ween off them, which totally made me bed ridden.

6 yrs ago … I start to feel well enough to start goin out again. I do, only to relpace the Zanax with alochol. I drank til 10 months ago.

The attacks were no as bad when I was drinking. Now that I have stopped, they are worse than ever. Yes, I have good days. But my thoughts are constantly on my breathing.

24/7!!! I smoke, so that doesnt help at all.

I do the deep breathing, etc but it is still there. Yes I too think it's something worse at times. and yes, it torments me with fear.

With all that being said, I am gonna have to find a way to turn those "bad" thoughts around.

I do not want to use med's again … or alcohol … so, idk … I am simply trusting my Father God to handle it.

Yall have a great day …

Shell