Today I ended my 5 year relationship.
I finally had the courage and now I dont know what to do. I worked today to get my mind off of it. I drank all day. I havent slipped into that crying yet.. I wonder if that means my mind is made up. Smoking my second cig of the day.. Think about him and not thinking about him…
Now that im an individual again what do I do? Now that I can do things without permission im afraid. In a way I was mentally exhausted..
I feel strange like another person… A person who has unlimited doors….