Hey so I guess I should introduce myself… I’m Giorgia and I’m 14. I suffer from Generalised anxiety and social anxiety. I also suffer from trichotillomania (a hair pulling disorder) and have a deep self hatred.
Currently, I am seeing a psychologist, who is using the CBT (cognitive behaviour therapy) technique and am wearing gloves and headbands to bed. I feel like I should be getting better but I’m not. I feel alone, music is my only escape and my self harm may go from just hair pulling to cutting as well.
I hate myself, everything about me. No matter what people say, I have always thought myself as fat and ugly. As a useless idiot even when I get good grades. I have an amazing younger brother and yet because I’m so sucked into my only world of internal pain, I’m shutting him out. I can never forgive myself when I shut my family and friends out… big I can’t express my feelings.
Music is my only escape… it makes me feel better about myself and yet my parents have tried banning me from dome music such as my chemical romance even though they are an important band in my life and have saved me on countless occasions.
My two closest friends know about this but I still feel alone. I feel like I shouldn’t have this i feel that im a freak. I hate letting down everyone around me.
I have slso tried a no hair pull bracelet: for everybody day I don’t pull an extra bead.. it’s unfortunately only short term. And I have Curley hair. Everyone wants to straighten my hair so what do I do if people want to straighten them? How do I respond with out anyone getting suspicious of my behaviour?
this is my life and its ups and downs mentally…