I just quit my old meds for BP2, Oxcarbazepine, and started a new one, Divalproex Sodium ER.
The Oxcarb. made me dizzy and made it hard for me to think. If I took the wrong dose or god dehydrated I would have episodes that I can only describe as seizure or small stroke, where certain functions like balance, speach, writing, thinking, muscle control and more would go haywire. I’d sometimes throw up for hours and feel as if everything was spinning. Best case scenarios just involved sleep, lots of sleep.
So that wasn’t very helpful. Also, this whole time I’m still depressed. Not wanting do die every hour on the hour depressed but that kind of sad you know is not sadness. It’s Hello Darkness my old friend times.
This new drug is supposed to be even worse, in ways. It can permanently cause weight gain, hair loss and liver damage. Now, liver damage would be the worst of it, but it’s less likely to happen than the other two. I already have problems with my hair and weight. Two small bastions of fading beauty that have begun to slip in the past few years. The meds can make you sluggish, make you feel unreal, and even cause short- and long-term memory loss while you take them.
I just want to be realively mentally healthy. I don’t want to have to sacrifice my libido (that’s another one), beauty, cognitive functions, and physical health for some meds that may or may not work!
I am so fed. up. with. these. meds. meds. meds.
When am I going to land on a solution for BP2 that works and doesn’t ruin my brain and body in the process???
Does anyone here have BP2 or is on the Bipolar spectrum? Which medications are you guys taking? For how long? Do they work? What are the side-effects? Do you know the ones I’m taking currently?
I also take Tegretol and then Klonazepam for occasional anxiety.