Today I hit a new level of depression. It has been building and festering for months. It started over a year ago when I tested HIV+. My world was completely turned upside down. I felt like I had been given a death sentence and my health has been spiraling ever since. I thought I was getting better until recently. I relocated in February to a new state for work. I don’t know souls here besides my boss. I’ve met some people at work, but don’t consider them to be friends. So I am dealing with homesickness and mental, and emotional issues alone. I tried to reach out to friends back home. They don’t care. Since I don’t know people here I can’t really reach out to anyone besides my boss and he is going through his own stuff, so I try not to bother him much. I just really feel alone and I have no support or friends. I’m going through everything alone and today I almost took my own life out of severe depression because the friends I was supposed to have back home aren’t very encouraging or supportive they are barely even there for me, but I’m always there for them. Even though I no longer live in the same state as them. I’m til reliable and they are still not good friends, so lately I’ve just been keeping everything to myself and today it boiled over and I had to talk to a crisis hotline to calm me down before I ended my life. I never want to be in this place again and it sucks not having people to support you even when they say they are there for you. I just wanna make a real connection with someone who actually gets what I’m going through.